Emotional Atyachar

DEV D was a big hit. no questioning that. All the misery of breakups and the things that ensued portrayed in its raw form. I have had my break up too. Its more emotinal when the truth that there is no longer a voice which is going to pamper you on the other side of your mobile dawns right before you. Every song that you hear reminds you of moments spent with her. The more you try to divert ypurself away from her thoughts, the more she appears in every blink of your eye.

I never saw DEV D and resorted to drinking. In fact i drank to forget all that brought in the break ups. It was painful and addictive. Every action you did to get rid off all the pain within you drew you closer, that all the real beautiful things in life seemed meek and wasted. I felt I was a stranger to myself. Some sould in me pitied me, or was it the people around me. The genes in me kept me going. No one knew, for i never changed much in the way I carried myself; solitude killed me from toe to the last strand of my hair. "Fear of the dark" as maiden sang it long ago was gripping me. I was having fever that couldnt be cured. And the worst part was i knew it.It was killing me from inside.It was like cancer, the pain was slowly but strongly eating into me. This had no escape. I had to face the truth. I hold on to life till the last shred of the rope that puppets me in my life keeps me going.. till the last drop of blood in me is pumped to all over me.. and till my lungs breathes in the last whiff of air......